Its been a very tough 3 or so days but hoping that things will now start to change. .... i am now on the Pole straight. Today I needed to decide whether I was going to go for the return or stop at the Pole (I am not there yet).
Apart from the last few days, I have remained at a pace that means that I can/ am fit/ have enough weight to go for the return -the main purpose of this journey.
Of course, with the two/three week delay in Punta and UG, the full return is unlikely, so I will be looking at the mileage. How far can I get back, how much can my body cope with? It would be very easy to walk away, say thats it as I get to the pole - or perhaps I should say IF I get to Pole. I say this because earlier today I was at a point that I didn't think I was going to make it to my current location let alone Pole (yep, another story). Of course, it would be great to complete the full return ...... but lets see what happens with my body, the weather and conditions.
In short, just like the PCT - I set out with lots of unknowns, apprehensions, questions, what ifs and doubts but came back with a whole new bank of memories, sets of skills, ideas, loves, friends, more memories and experiences. Its the same here... and That is the important bit. Life is too short not to try something new... who knows what may happen......
So, guess thats my decision - The return it is.... .
God Love you. Go for it. This is your chance to shine through. Take your time and pace yourself. Rome was not built in a day, so be patient. I hope you are looking after you, as that is part of your Trek as well. We love you, so start to believe in yourself. You can do this xxxx
ReplyDeleteYeah!!!!!!! :-))))
ReplyDeleteYou're not missing anything here that won't wait another few weeks x
Great stuff Ems. Nice decision. X
ReplyDeleteHi Emma,
ReplyDeleteGreat to hear from you. I'm in Sweden now, in a beautiful meditation retreat site we have in a forest, with very little 'civilization' anywhere nearby. (but we do have wifi most of the time, hurray!). It's not as cold as your place (and oddly, no snow now). But I've been thinking about you a lot and I'm glad to be online to read your blog.
I of course hope you will go for the return journey since, as you said, life is short. I'll write more later. I'm very happy to keep up with your news. Of course I also encourage you to repeat internally the Baba Nam Kevalam mantra. You might find it can be quite helpful. I'll write more asap.